| [ EnglishOnly ] in KIDS 글 쓴 이(By): tivor (the wolf) 날 짜 (Date): 1994년09월16일(금) 06시34분26초 KDT 제 목(Title): to guest esp who posted #666 (what a #) well, after all is said and done, you ARE alone in the world. no one is really gonna look after you but yourself. when that fact hits you, it hits you hard. i know. it hit me too. (well, personally, i'm not totally alone because i have Jesus on my side, but that brings the topic to religion, and it is never a good idea to bring religion as a subject in a public discussion board like this, and that is why this needlessly long sentence is put in parentheses) and the world is full of sorrow and sadness... and while sadness seem to last forever, joy seem to come and go like a flash of light. sux, huh? and... there are ppl who would use you, take advantage of you... etc... i tried to be everyone's friend... and realized i could not. i think it's some sort of a phase that everybody goes through. kinda hol-lo-suh-gi.... you know. and then i found that those ppl who are really important to me are not those around me. (well, not necessarily) it really wasnt the folks who tell me "yo, i care about you, man" "hey, i'm on your side" or "you're my real good friend" and stuff like that, whether or not they were drunk when they said that. the ones who really cared about me (and hence are important to me) are those whose voices changed when i gave them a call after a couple of months (or longer) of non-communication. (i should know. when someone that i dont particularly like calls me, my voice is like "oh... hi...! what's up...? man..., long time no talk...." even though i would say that i'm his/her friend) so... now i have about two or three friends with whom i hope to be able to talk when we're all grandpas and grandmas. those are the ones who are really important to me, and that makes me happy. and that sense of happiness (however subtle it may be) gives me a push on my back to keep moving through all the sorrows and sadness. (the sense of hope and of my life's meaningfulness cannot be underestimated in its power to keep me going, of course, but that would bring me back to the subject of -- you guessed it -- religion, and again i leave this sentence in parentheses) man... i totally babbled on here..... do i feel cheesy =d Tivor the Cheesy Wolf jcp2@cornell.edu "A Beast I am, lest a Beast I become." |