| [ EnglishOnly ] in KIDS 글 쓴 이(By): hobbes (calvin) 날 짜 (Date): 1996년05월26일(일) 18시03분04초 KDT 제 목(Title): Resolution....psss This is not new year's season I know.. but.. I read a sad article in some other board why an ingenious and good person had to leave his beloving field... and started another life with so drastically changed environment. Not long ago, someone asked me "Why didn't you want to achieve something in your field ? Don't you have something for your field ?" I couldn't answer that question directly. and I guess that one got disappointed at me so much by that . I was in the middle of some kinda struggling among those thoughts. Thoughts about my raison d'etre in my field. I've seen so many things. Things which I'd never dreamed of until that time. Some may say [Why are you complaining so much ? That's all because you don't have guts to do it and you can't manage your time and energy.] Yes, maybe they are right. After some months of consideration, I decided to set my life course re-set. Some may again say [What the hell are you talking about ? You changed your life so easily. Do you hope that someone can believe you can manage your way in THAT field ?] Maybe that's right also. But in a way, having been through something what that write also has, I can understand what the write must have felt at that time. [There is no one to help him(I assume the writer "him"). No advices, no consolations, no comforts... even from parents. The mind get astray among the so-called [blackening zone.] All he has to do is to evaluate and to consider all about him thoroughly. Sometimes wants to find shelters but can't find it. After he gets out of the long and dark tunnel, he finds out that he lost so many precious and preceless things during his what they call wanering.] And now in the course of getting back to the way I've been, I wanna say something about the attitudes toward the so-called [defectors] [If a system works improperly, there is no way outta the circle. There is only 2 ways to do in that system. One, adapt myself perfectly to it. This is what I hate the most. Two, Change it. To do this, there must be some sacrifices inside as well as outside. The system needs some fueling and oiling. more over, it needs some drastic operation. An operation no one imagined possible. the defectors, some of them want to get out of it. But many of them, I believe and hope, want to change the circle of unreasons.] I'm strongly in favor of the writer's decision. His decision and resolution is absolutely right for him. |